reason control

this blessing of lies, untold oblivion,
this fragile skin cocoons me, a little more backbone,
after all we said we'd been through, i told you i wasn't strong enough to keep you,
my only everything, the last starting point,
i get it, i get it, i understand, it was all you could forgive,
it was all i ever could steal,
the only thing i could sow,
was meant to be a fool, but this beast has created itself,
now.
thats all i get, thats what i gave you, solid, sunken,
a shrunken head reminder, blame it on the window being open,
it's not the only thing that makes the wind blow across the floor,
nothing quiet, like the things inside my head,
this is the only time i am sure the systems out of control,
oil spill, satin shards, everything i need to leave behind,
just want to drown you the way you held me under.