twice the half

everything you ask of me, is only to keep me yours,
deeper than the sky, sullen, awake this heart shaped emptyness,
a little shore, floating in the wake, a bubble,
ship shape, time wasting
eat this skin, not even you could hold back,
bleeding fingertips, lips, every single bone,
into a wet recovery,
hold you down, make you listen baby,
i'm here but i'm not yours i'm not even a part of me,
try distance your tears, level headed, push back,
slide this fortification, slump,
think you could tender yourself,
just to sink these things for me,

reason control

this blessing of lies, untold oblivion,
this fragile skin cocoons me, a little more backbone,
after all we said we'd been through, i told you i wasn't strong enough to keep you,
my only everything, the last starting point,
i get it, i get it, i understand, it was all you could forgive,
it was all i ever could steal,
the only thing i could sow,
was meant to be a fool, but this beast has created itself,
now.
thats all i get, thats what i gave you, solid, sunken,
a shrunken head reminder, blame it on the window being open,
it's not the only thing that makes the wind blow across the floor,
nothing quiet, like the things inside my head,
this is the only time i am sure the systems out of control,
oil spill, satin shards, everything i need to leave behind,
just want to drown you the way you held me under.

time

your old hero, passive, a fool inside the polar,
solid, sudden anger keeps my sleep endangered,
prone to be your victim again, still need this,
sunk into a sodden love nest, flavor modesty,
meltdown, makeover, lips and hips haunt these fingertips,
false alarm, lavish loneliness, they don't say those things on television,
lie to me, tell me it's over, open depression, keep cool, vacant, jury leftovers,
seldom sciences underlies these feelings of loathing hunger, kill this!
taught me to underestimate myself,
salt to my wounds, fledgling harlot ,
elevate this harlequin, I'm still your fool,
even from the ends of influence,
the coma doubles my nightmares,
your man, restless in the breeze, stumble across the wind, poised, unfaithful,
a lot like a woman.

summer storm

hidden in your wolves veto, unplugged,
somber, sullen, shrewd, uncover my feet,
bathes in your milky eggshells, honey for your midnight,
all i did was open up a bottle of mistakes,
it's a joke, i told you tomorrow would be hot,
call off your whimpering welcomes, wake into a wet weaknesses,
the sun breaks my windows breach, sounds like winter,
breeze through your draws, i learnt your way to walk,
you still look like a fool to me.

unemployable

drunk, sooner i'm out, leave you pass out's to breakfast,
way too sober to fall into you this time, i'll pretend, fake fuck you,
leave you to share the left side of the bed,
sleep in a while, just at noon wake into this empty room,
monsoon, balloon, turning into the matchmaker,
drown you just so you'll see i'm drowning too,
this time things will be different, water mark,
manic piano, a polar bear dresses himself,
cold afternoons leave me liberal,
like a freshly rolled cigarette burns hot evenings,
stay in bed to give you wet mornings, hunter,
leave this song to bed, stupid music machine, time to eventuate,
crawling inside Escher's house, trying to get to you outside,
motorcycle miracle, drown rats in cardigans,
turn off the radio it's late, this woman's gonna kill me soon,
broke, pockets filled with oven mitts,
your mother paid all your bills, just so you could get drunk for a while,
just like your sister, another to share his pillow,
not your fault, this baby's gotta break sometime,
now i think of it, it is your fault.

different

Still strange to avoid, conversations in touch,
broken hearts and empty rooms, one more void to own my kingdom,
we want more of it, just enough to fit in the front door, corridor,
chance to try and dance with running away from you, cant get back into the country,
smoking gun opera, stupid cowboy,
try to tell you about the way it should have been,
he's not like the other boys, he wont turn the lights off,
some times the things underneath, feel the same
tried to come round before i left but i couldn't not have it,
different over again, burnt fresh toast,
you'll see me again, just not sure if it will still be me,
untaught, over spoilt, terrible thought, sponsored spectacular,
in the vernacular,
sounds like thunder,
like to stay in the rain with you a while,
this south Mexican experience,
wind under your skin, haunts your dress,
strings making love to finger tips, lips on my semi erect lizard,
crawling through your rusty gate,
elephants inside bottles, bleeding camels, covered in sick,
fisherman's wife entertaining,
just another shard of my childhood.